Seek me more. Be me more.

It is probably not surprising that I am a lover of all things goal, list, and "to do" related. Thus you can probably guess that one of my favorite weeks of the year is the week between Christmas and New Years day. There is something so exciting and rejouvinating that comes with planning for , praying over, and prepping your heart and mind for a new year. A fresh start. A chance to just hit the reset button and refocus on things that matter, and tweak some areas that need a little tweaking.

This is also the time of year where I have learned I need to keep myself in check. Less I set ALL THE GOALS and then burnout by February 1 (and then give up all together) because of this silly little thing called perfection. Am I right? Please tell me I am not alone in this? I know you people exist.

In 2013 I set five goals and did a decent job of checking everything off until, you know, mid year. I don't regret these goals though. And I know Brandon appreciated me putting a little more effort into the typical dinner that was boil noodles in a pot and add sauce.

In 2014 I caught on to the one word for the year trend, that still appears to be going strong. As list and goal focused as I am, there is something freeing about choosing one word to let guide you through the year. My one word in 2014 was intentional. (in)courage is a big proponent of the one word for the new year trend. 

I have spent a lot of time praying over 2015, and asking God to speak loudly to me. I want to focus on his agenda for my year (after all this life is about Him, is it not?), as it is so easy to just get caught up in my own.

And this year what I hear Him saying is . . .

Seek me more. Be me more. 

I feel Him nudging me to spend more time in the Word, really getting to know Him. Pushing myself a little harder and studying those passages of scriptures that I don't understand. Spend more time in prayer. Just seek. Day after day after day. And seek all throughout the day. Seeking is not limited to my morning coffee and quiet time.

And to follow the seeking, I feel God whispering "be me more." Be my hands. Be my feet. Go out of your way, Britt, to uplift a friend, or drop off that meal, or mail a handwritten note of encourament, or share a little hope with that frazzled mom in the grocery store, or chase after that perfect stranger in the parking lot who dropped a spare dollar bill. And while my busyness and stress is a real thing, being a mom of two littles and an intensive therapy schedule should not be a constant excuse to "let someone else do it." Because this is called life. And there will always be busyness and stress. I will still set boundaries and evaluate invitations as a best fit for myself and my family as needed, but this is different than the excuse I speak of.

So that is what I am focusing on in 2015. More seeking Jesus, and more being Jesus in whatever ways I feel Him leading me. I have a feeling that the more I am seeking, the easier it will be to respond to His leading. I can't wait to walk the path ahead.
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(Has anyone else discovered She Reads Truth? I am probably late to the ball game here, but I was so excited to find this amazing resource and have jumped right in the community this year. I am currently following the John study and the 365 days of truth study (plan is outlined to read the Bible in one year). I desperately needed a new, fresh guide to meet my "seek me more" goal, and this is a perfect fit. If any of you ladies is feeling a nudge to spruce up your devotional time, I highly recommend checking out She Reads Truth.)